Sunflower is here. Turk & Jbird are too. Annie is with us. Krits just arrived yesterday. Tay and I are together too. The little nut is running around just like his name implies. The only one missing is our Josie cat. The Scott’s are together for the first time since Christmas. I am FULL and haven’t yet had a thing to eat this Thanksgiving.
I am FULL.
I am with my family and I’m not trying to change a single one of them. I am not anxious. I am not afraid. I am turning off my technology, and turning toward this collection of individuals that I call my own. I don’t own any of them and yet when I am with them there is nothing more that I need. I am not insecure in my place among them. I am simply practicing “being with” them. We are becoming ONE and we are becoming more autonomous. This is not the road that I expected it would be when Sunflower and I welcomed little Jbird into our fold some 26 years ago. It just isn’t. It’s taken a long while to get comfortable being uncomfortable. AND, to realize that I am NOT in control and yet I already know how the story ends.
God, help me lean into your arms and open mine more and more to this collection.
God, help me.
BUILT TO LEAD 