I’ve been listening to Coldplay exclusively since last Saturday morning. Here’s why. Coldplay is my favorite artist to listen to when I’m feeling a bit down. Coldplay doesn’t further depress me nor does their music miraculously lift me up. Coldplay just kinda lets me sit in whatever I’m feeling, especially when I’m a bit down or feeling it’s time to slow down and reflect. This week I’ve been feeling both.
One of my deeply held beliefs is we humans are meant to feel life. Love and loss, I believe, are bookends. So, for the past handful of days and for three more, I’m lost in Coldplay as I feel love and loss intertwined as Tay’s departure crashes in on my reality. I’m not looking forward to the next chapter without him home. I’m not.
And, I’m alright with that. It is good to know my heart can ache in such a way. It is good.
As I write this I gotta admit I’ve had a little joy through this Coldplay marathon; I’ve discovered a new favorite. The track is titled, Midnight. The lyrics are short and simple. The melody reminds me of mourning. I’m sitting in this melody and this mourning and the groove is growing and growing on me. I’m happy for Tay’s next chapter, I’m really excited for his growth, I’m super happy to see him fly away and live his story, and I’m really aware of the hole in my heart.
Love and loss are bookends. It is good. It is good to know my heart is alive. In the darkness before the dawn, it is good to know there is still a light on. It is good. Thanks, Tay for the bookends…
BUILT TO LEAD 
Bonhoeffer is the one I remember credited with the wisdom that when the hole in your heart is from one who is gone … Even the God we pray to will NOT fill it … b/c it would dishonor Love… No, God may sustain u in other ways, but the hole in the unique shape of the one whose shape it was created is the only one who can fill it when u r reunited again …
Great “and,” Gurue. Thank you…