Day 89 and 90…

I’m going off-script again, but it all ties together – trust me 🙂

A few years ago when running a team practice, a young woman admitted she was playing small. Her big dream was to run a farm, she just didn’t know where to start. We quickly discovered fear was more of the cause for the failure to launch – so true for all of us. She faced her fear, took the leap and hasn’t looked back.

Simultaneously, and not incidentally, her fulfillment at work has been waning and this was breaking her heart because she LOVES the company and people she works with. So we chatted about that, here’s a snippet of our texting string this morning. Hope this helps you connect some Identify dots as well…

Gardner Gal:
It’s f*cking fear again!

DD:
What are you afraid of this time?

Gardner Gal:
That I don’t matter- what I have to give isn’t of value anymore. That I know longer fit.

DD:
All of these are true. Do you know why?

Gardner Gal:
Loss of belonging – the more “unlike” I feel the more I want to run?

DD:
Right… you no longer fit because that person doesn’t exist any more. You’ve awoken to a different purpose. What is it?

Gardner Gal:
that I’m a gardener of life. How I steward what’s mine or what isn’t. And how sometimes stewardship isnt control, its respect for. I haven’t been able to write all of that without it feeling too hokey. Thats the most succinct I’ve ever put that.

DD:
F*ck-en-ay! What if the gardening was for people too? what if you treated people like they were the seeds, little buds and crops you tend to?

Gardner Gal:
Dang. I just flipped back to when I was in the core practice. The PA was to write about our identities and I wrote exactly this imagery – but at the time I could only see it in how I was as a mother, what that represented.

DD:
Right… often times our Identity is there we just don’t see the other ways it can be integrated. Most likely, the things that you love about gardening are the same things that you love at work, as a mother, in relationships. If the office was your garden and you were trying to “grow” fertile humans, what would you do? That should be the essence of your job.

Gardner Gal:
Gah love that, helps pull my identities together when they’ve felt so at odds with one another

DD:
Exactly… your CORE supersedes the “job” you have. It’s who you are beyond that. If you can integrate that into your day to day – you are becoming fully alive. And THAT is the good sh!t.

Gardner Gal:
Damn. Our paths were probably designed to connect. Not just cross. I appreciate ya a lot DD

DD:
Uh. Greed.