Spock…

Spock felt nothing. Jesus wept.

Today, we mostly resemble Spock. Why? Seems most of us have trouble with our temper. Like one of my clients recently told me, most run away when we begin to feel flooded with emotion. Why? Unlike Jesus, we get flooded by triggers – tears, not so much. So, we run. Some run to their room. Some run away. Some run to the basement. Some blow leaves. Nothing harmful (or helpful) gets in, therefore, nothing much comes out. Spock like.

Jesus wept because He felt anothers pain. And then another, including yours and mine too. He allowed Himself to feel. His heart, you see, was built to take it. Jesus paid it forward. Most pay it back. Including me.

I’m overly tuned to my feelings and undertuned to yours. I’m afraid of giving too much and being taken for granted. I don’t know how to practice gratitude without applauding my own effort. My heart, you see, still suffers from some stress fractures, so to speak. I keep score and still kinda cheat toward me…

This Christmas I pray you will feel the joy of giving. Someday, I hope to enjoy the gift of giving as freely as our Father. Today, I’ll just be thankful and give a little. Baby step, you know. Thanks, God, for paying it forward for me. Thanks for feeling all our pain. Thanks for the tears. Thanks for Jesus.

What, friend, are you feeling? Slow down. Reflect. Feel life. Feel the full range of emotions. Ask God to help you learn to love more than you loathe. Good.

Live hard. Love harder…