Why I don’t ‘Sing, Anyway’

Why I don’t sing more is related to my earlier blog Half-Brained (aka why I don’t write more), and it’s what Toto just wrote about.

If you’re not like me, read on about what I’m learning only to better understand others who are. 

Writing is not ONLY the key to engaging your WHOLE brain.    It’s ALSO the key to unlocking and discovering your whole HEART.     And you WON’T if you just DON’T.

Translated, I don’t know what I’m FEELING and what’s going on with my heart until & unless I’m willing to throw it up on paper and look at it.   Followed by actually TALKING about it with a fellow builder (which is just as hard or harder).

It’s a CHOICE.  Sure you can save yourself the pain, and refuse to write, but without engaging your whole brain and discovering your heart, you will NOT find your sCORE or your SONG or your OPUS.    If you’re stubborn as a MULE you will REMAIN one, and settle for going through the motions, half-brained & half-hearted.  

Which is a ‘half-ASSed’ way to live.    And not at all the way you’re designed.

Yesterday, I also realized at a deeper level of clarity there’s another reason why days go by without singing.

It’s my ‘F____ING problem’, and it’s universal to my being human, in the struggle.

Which is that I FORGET. . .  when I get too busy or reactive or out of my discipline, I forget what it’s like to sing, and then after awhile I forget my song.   If I don’t use it, I lose it.    It’s sort of a catch 22.   Without doing the real, hard, work to build and maintain a sCORE — without REMEMBERING to sing and PRACTICING my song — I don’t grow stronger.

And then it seems the only thing I DO remember are the same old tapes of the  WRONG song, which start playing again, causing me to FORGET who I AM, WHY I live & work, and HOW I want to live & work. 

So to learn your song and learn to sing, learn to write.  Use your whole brain and discover your whole heart.

And then discipline yourself to PRACTICE it, so that you can forget and remember the RIGHT things, not the wrong ones.

Together we improve, and together let us SING and help each other find our true melody lines.