He will…

This morning I awoke very unsettled.  I leaned over to Miss and told her how much this work is changing me.  She returned a look that said she knew what I meant, AND she knew that I would tell her more.  She listened.  She blows me away with her tolerance, LOVE, and acceptance of me.  

AND, I guess, that was the unsettling thought that stirred me from my rest.  I awoke disturbed by the thought that we, by our very nature, seek relationships that reciprocate.  No human can truly give, give, give.  No human can give until there’s nothing left.  None of us will keep listening, listening, and listening if we don’t feel heard.  

We all tend toward keeping score.  

AND, tragically, none of us scores “fairly.”  We’ve simply been, historically, too trained to survive.  Elisabeth Jackson was teaching Andrew a practical reality of human existence when she gave him her parting wisdom…

You must find your own way, you will need the help of true friends, and you both will be keeping score.  Hey humans, what about practicing abundance?  What about just forgiving and forgetting?  What about grace and mercy just flowing out of you with no concern about your personal justice?  What about LOVE?  What about just giving because you want to?  

As I lay next to Miss and threw up these thoughts I was reminded of the apostle Paul and how the more he grew in God’s wisdom, the more he saw his depravity.  I am NOT comparing myself to Paul.  I am, however, looking in the mirror and NOT seeing anything that resembles “the image of God.”  In fact I can’t see a reflection at all.  As I stare, seek, and continue to search for the real me in the reflection here’s what hits me.  

Here it is.  As I study, learn, and apply what sustains high performance in work and life and as I look at my own journey toward that end with other humans in both work and life, here’s the melody line for me.  Here’s the prevailing thought to giving more and expecting less and to building relationships that really score.  Do NOT miss this. This is HUGE.

Get on your knee’s.  Plant your face in your hands.  AND, cry out for help.  Scream…

God help me.

God fill me with your LOVE.

AND, God, help me to ACT on what I believe to be true.

He will.

Talk about surprising…