One of my love to’s is feeling life. I love experiencing emotions and processing my way through them. This is, most likely, due to my default setting regarding happiness. I’m fairly happy by nature. I laugh and love high on the spectrum. My moments of depression and sorrow are short and shallow, or so it seems when I listen to others speak of their emotional lives. So, last night as we shared a meal and memories with Miss, Pinner, Elizabeth, Jeff, and Jordan, I soaked in the raw emotions regarding our loss. I sat with them, felt life. My “love to” was bitter and sweet. Will be today. It seems like a million years ago that Grappy blurted out “focus on the good.” Time is deceptive, huh.
Today, friend, sit, walk, and stand. Love, laugh, and cry. Your emotions are meant to move you, at least the arousal emotions are. Listen to them. Learn from them. Regulate them.
Think. Reflect. Act. Sit. Walk. Stand. Use your emotions. Do not let them use you. These are the roots of wisdom. Today, I’m going to feel life. And, I’m going to regulate (not reflect) the room. I’m going to pray for God’s peace that passes all human understanding. I’m going to pray for God’s love to reign in me so I can rain hope, love, and peace to those ‘round me. I’m going to pray for God’s help in navigating our collective grief as a family. I’m going to focus on the good as I grieve. God, help me.
Live hard. Love harder…