I “officially” started becoming built to lead on February 19th, 2010 at 3:28pm when I finished a questionnaire designed to help me discover more about myself. I had so much passion and optimism for BTL and a lot of work to do. I had no idea how much. I fought the framework and wrote my personal OPUS before I built my CORE. This doesn’t work. How do I know? Because for 5 years I was chasing a big dream with no real commitment, no real discipline, no real work. I didn’t get very far because I believed that my life would somehow turn around if I just… well… believed.
Eventually my chronic stress and anxiety led me to write this email to Chet on May 20th, 2015 at 5:46pm:
Joining BTL has always been in my head but I’ve never been able to truly commit/believe for several reasons. I wanted to write down my thoughts and share them. Why you ask, I’m really not sure other than writing stuff out helps…
I’m scared, can I really make a living doing this? Am I willing to risk everything? What if I suck? What if I fail? What if I don’t get Julie’s support? I’ve been trying to author my own way only to be met with frustration, lack of progress, loss of energy. I want to experience what you experienced so that I “get it” but I’m not sure I do or ever will. What does it take to become a BTL leader? What happens if you die, who will carry on teaching me the BTL way? How do I do this on my own in St. Louis?
Chet’s response was CCD:
You can do more than you think, never forget that.
Did you catch that? Don’t miss this, it’s HUGE, life changing really. If I wanted to live my OPUS, passion and belief weren’t enough. I had to DO MORE, think less. So I slowly embraced DOing the real – hard – work of building a strong CORE by productively taking action. And sure enough, after sharing my story with a few this week, I realized that the chronic stress and anxiety are no longer there. I’ve been at this for 7 years, 21 days, 19 hours, 35 minutes AND I feel like I’m just getting started.