You and I cannot truly give ourselves to another, or to anything, until we’ve flipped ourselves into someone CORE centered and self controlling. This is grueling, relentless, and revealing. Few have the stomach for it. Most of us settle for being less self absorbed than our neighbors and leave it at that. The CORE centered trust themselves in spite of themselves. None of us is perfect. We’re all broken vessels. Some of us are clearly cracked and leaking water. Most aren’t so lucky. Most of us are filled with hairline fractures that we mostly manage through some form of chronic pain suppressors. Nobody sees. Nobody notices. We believe our bullshit. Works for awhile.
Shit, eventually, gets real. Hairline fractures turn into broken limbs. We go from walking with a limp to flat on our back. So, friend, when you think about where you are on the continuum of self centered/other controlling to CORE centered/self controlling, remember to come clean. Get to the root. Get dirty. Seek truth. Be truer. It may make you miserable before it sets you free.
Today, I got back after it with my first client practice in 21. We got to the root. Reminded me how high the bar for the Builder. I’ve not arrived. I’ve got work to do to eradicate fear and trust myself enough to hit client after client with truth in love. Sounds easy. It is not. I too want to control what others think of me and sometimes play small out of fear. I hold back instead of hit. I tell myself they can’t handle the truth, at least not yet. Truth is I can’t handle it.
I’m after more truth and it’s not all sunshine and butterflies. Truth hurts. Truth heals. Truth does not harm. Good start to 21, friends. Good work getting to the root, at least in practice one of 21. Lets see how we are in practice two and then again in three. Be less self centered and other controlling. Care less without caring less. Be truer. Good…